Tonight was an awesome night! I hosted our wing party. It was a good success a good number of the guys turned up. We played poker and had our fill of pop and chips. Oh don't buy noname ginger ale… not only does it taste incredible bad it does something to you… trust me it has bad effects… funny, but bad :P lol. While we were playing poker others were playing the Nintendo 64 or playing on my electric drums. After that we watched ace Ventura pet detective… Funny, a little crude but funny. Well it was all done around 10 10:30 so here I find myself lying in bed with my Bed Buddy Ned lol talking. This is where it gets interesting. Amongst being right about a quote about Kung Fu Panda, the topic of Females came up. Partly because of the letter I finally finished writing today and partly because it's me and my roommate. In any case, we got on the topic of how it seem a lot of the girls were interested in, have the same first letters in their names. The prominent one for me is K followed by m with maybe a J thrown in there. To get a rise out of Ned, I mention a possible A for me (hinting at the girl Ally who I pretty sure she likes me and Ned pretty much got her to say it… or rather to say it by not saying anything and intern that being a yes in a sense… )WELL we got into a discussion about leading girls on. He thinks I am leading her on (and in a sense I agree) but I'm one who avoids conflict and hurting people. What I mean by that is I don't want to be straight up or abrasive but nor do I want to lose a friend. The point where this matters is I have a hike with her on Monday. Not a date by name but by assumption. Me and Ned both think this would be too much (leading her on wise) and he suggested I find another to go with us, just to be a presence. I asked him and he said yes if he was free. The stipulation he added to this was what I thought was funny, true and funny. He said she probably sees Ned as my wingman from the invite to a movie and the aftermath. History on the movie: Ned and I are sitting in the caf and Ally comes and sits with us. Ned and I had planned to watch a movie after dinner before chapel. Well he starts to invite her in a roundabout way. I look at him thinking he is doing this on purpose to annoy me and help along his evil plan (the tummies 'date' set up) well he completely is just being a nice guy and didn't think of it at all. Again funny, but not good for the lead on. In any case we both think that she sees him as my wingman and that he wouldn't be a the best choice for the hike. The other option we came up with is the possibility of 'the talk' coming up on the walk and having a third there for that would be, well, awkward. In this situation, however, it would be easy for me to show her how I feel, not interested. But those situations plague me. I hate hurting people. I've said it once and I'll say it again I would almost go along with it to not hurt someone… really bad, especially since later she will be hurt even worse. Well whatever I decide well see what the outcome is. I don't want to lose a friend and I really am flattered she likes me but she's not the one for me and I've given Ned permission to sack me if the thought of going out with her crosses my mind. Why? Because me and Ned are the same. We both have a tendency to like the people who first like us. It's a lot easier in the pursuit ie the works already done. Here I will say goodnight! On a side note the Ex may not be blogging anymore, I think I might continue because it's a good record and I hold hope for any who read it. Fair Well!
A Subtle Struggling Stranger
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