Well as I said I would be back tonight. Well a lot has transpired since last I wrote and you read. Hard to comprehend but it has. Let's start at the beginning. This morning I meant to get up at 6 to do some homework then go to class. Well this did not work and I slept in. Later in the day I had a meeting. My excuse for not going to class was of a massive head ache. Well when I went for food and the meeting I found out what kind of actor I am as everyone believed me even asking if I had one before it came up. Numerous people ask if I wanted medication and one even told me not to go to my meeting that he would talk and vouch for me and drive me down to my room to sleep. Impressed with myself, yes; disappointed with myself, yes. There was no need to skip class like I did. I blame my every evolving or unveiling self as I slowly tear away masks of personas. This being one mask I have yet to still remove; the avoiding conflict and responsibility one. No one knows, save you now, about this. Does it plague my conscience? Every waking moment thus far. The only positive outcome is, I finally was able to go to manly movie Monday.
Manly movie Monday, oh how I wish I did not have class. A bunch of us crazy guys went to the store to get food. Well at the store we asked to people to be in a quartet with us, were extremely loud and proved that my friend, Lance, really does shave every part of his body. How did we accomplish this? Simple. I called shotgun….. Ever heard of the shotgun challenge. Well if say I call shotgun and somebody calls challenge the first person to drop their pants and get to the car first gets shotgun… Yep it happened… and were pretty sure the one cute girl we asked to be in our quartet saw.. Fun… ABSOLE FREAKIN LOOOTLY!!! This alongside other jokes made for a hilarious night. Oh and I definitely found one of my new favorite web sites. It's name? unrelatedcaptions.com … I'll let you figure out what it is…
Before all these shenanigans (believe me what I haven't told you definitely qualifies these as shenanigans) is of the self mutilation done earlier. Well while I was on FB a convo was started with Ally. Somehow the line great minds think alike got thrown in (by her) because we said posted something at the same time… Well I asked if that's why Ned and I can finish each other's sentences. Yes denied it saying we don't have great minds… Anyway, after this, I said "no, it's probably because were married." That was a conversation starter and well I explained me and him were roomies last year as well so were 'common law'. But directly after the married comment she post well I'm jealous…. Did I burst out laughing??? Nope… too shocked. Stood up backed away from the computer, covered my mouth and almost, almost, sank into the fetal position… She 'explained' in subsequent post but this coming from the person who pinned the poem Rock Bottom on here wall… Needless to say Ned and Mark had a good laugh over this one.
Just before mark and I returned to the room from coffee, Kara called. Well since I was in the car (she asked) she only told me she watched the movie Definitely, Maybe and then we said goodbye. Explanation, remember that movie Ned bought and was the story, and future story, of my life. Well Kara had bought it, before I told her Ned and I watched, but never watched it. After our call the other night she 'had' to watch it because I hinted at a 'joke' and such between Ned and I. She loved it, cried at it and was satisfied with the ending. I'm not sure how to take this yet as she has not explained why or what she might assume I meant about it. I'll find out soon enough I suppose, still waiting for her blog post yet though. Enough about women; on to God.
I read tonight, the only reason I'm posting. I read Luke 3. Well there was one part that spoke to me. Just before deciding to read and then write this, I was heavily tempted. God provides. Reading this struck my heart again. How? Luke 3:7-9
"Then he said to the multitudes that came out to be baptized, "Brood of Vipers! Who warned you of flee from the wrath to come? Therefore bear fruits worthy of repentance, and do not begin to say to yourselves, 'we have Abraham as our father.' For I say to you hear that God is able to raise up children of Abraham from these stones. And even now the ax is laid to the root of trees. Therefore every tree which does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire."
Even if we say we are Christian should we not live our lives as being forgiven? If we truly repentant then why does our life not reflex it? What struck me is that every tree not bearing good fruit will be cut down and cast into the fire. Who I am is slowly being transformed by God's hands in my life, yet still there should be fruits as I am redeemed and God can use me even now. Further from this, my question is if this is the way it should be why are the Christina schools the worst? Why does it seem more and more Christians are doing worse things than the non Christians? Why Am I ok with living like a am ; in sin. There are so many questions. Later in the verses to come it even tells what to do in different occupations. Be honest, don't grumble, if you have excess share with those who do not? Yet why do so few follow these? Why is it that the worst cases of fraud and theft are within the church? Why do you always hear a Christian complaining? And why do not more share their wealth and good fortune? This verse causes me to want to just get going with ministry. Get into the world and do something about. This verse turns me on my brothers and sisters as they should be following these. This angers me in a sense of how low the standard for being a Christian has fallen and easy it is to do nothing within the church. With such simple and few commands as these why have they fallen by the wayside? This attacked my very soul in that I was even considering falling into my temptation as I had early. I see how easy it is to push these aside for what we want, what we crave. This, however, is no excuse. As Christians we should set the examples, the very name should hold us to such a higher standard that it is unattainable as it even means little Christ. Yet in our world we are content to live and let live; to go with the flow; to not know what the left hand is doing or the right yet full well know it is wrong. Why do we pursue person gain in a career in ministry? Ministry is about reaching people for Christ with the gospel not money position or power. We should dwell less on where our career is taking us and more concerned where God is taking us. Well I think I've ranted enough for tonight. And though I could say more, I will leave you with this. "The crooked places shall be made straight And the rough ways smooth; And all flesh shall see the salvation of God!" Isaiah 40:4,5
Peace and Grace be Yours in Abundance
A Reading Struggling Stranger
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